For the last week or so, I have been incredibly tired. Drained. Exhausted. Sometimes it’s easy to write things off as “everyday life” and something that we should just “get over” and let go of. We get shamed into diminishing our own stress, and are taught that “busy” people are the “bosses” of the (mostly social media driven) world.
Let me take this moment to remind you – being busy is not the same as being effective or productive. Do not confuse stress as a badge of honor, or pain, resentment, depression or any other negative feeling as a way of proving your worth/value or strength.
I know part of this (I think largely) is coming from this annoying, yet persistent cough that has been bothering me for the better part of a week now. It’s especially bad at night, so I cough cough cough, all night long, and don’t sleep well. Is it the weather? Dust and allergens? I can’t pinpoint – but I am really over it.
Physically – I may have overexerted myself too soon/much with an ambitious “jog” for 30 minutes the other day. The weather was so nice and it was a long weekend – so I went for it. Welllllll turns out when I haven’t jogged in ages, 30 minutes was a LOT more than I thought it would be and my body has been paying for it. My calves are balled up so tight they hurt to walk, my hips/knees/ankles and feet joints are all aching, and my muscles still faintly ache even two-three days later. Getting old sometimes sneaks up on me and reminds me that I’m not as young as I think.
Also since last week, I have been dealing with a very angry muscle (or set of muscles) across my trapezius muscles and up through my neck/base of my skull. This also caused a large, swollen area on my right collarbone region that was flared up for the last week. I believe this issue was due to a specific type of racer back bra that I wore to work for all full day (I typically only wear it for a few hours at a time with tank tops) – which applied a lot of pressure on my traps, and I now deeply regret.
On top of that – I can’t help but wonder (I’m fairly certain I know the answer) if my increased allowance of alcohol has also affected my sleep. I did “dry January” and felt quite well…but I have enjoyed many more glasses of wine in February – in comparison to my 4 drinks in January
My inter-personal relationships aren’t the majority cause of any of my stress, although there is an underlying hum of irritation/frustration with a couple of people I interact with regularly.
Work … well work is work. Sometimes it’s coworkers, sometimes it’s internal or external customers and other days it’s just work stress – but work has seemed to be looking up lately.
Thankfully we had a three day weekend just past, so I can’t complain in that regard, however ALL factors must be considered in assessing the totality of my mental, physical and emotional health feeling so depleted. I’m not much of a “baths and candles” type of person – though I know many people who do enjoy that….but I might have to invest in a massage. I think I will make my way to the chiropractor, perhaps a good dinner and an early bedtime! All in all, I am in need of some recharging and I am hopeful that I can figure out a way to de-stress, get some (better) rest and feel better soon!
How do YOU deal with stress?